God, Jesus—whoever You are—I am frightened. You see, I have never been loved in my life.
I cannot remember when I truly felt the warm flannel blanket of a mother’s love around my shoulders. God, I have trouble with any father figure in my life because mine hit me for years and my mother did nothing to stop it.
In my heart, I desperately long to have a loving father and mother in my life, but I am also desperately afraid of letting someone into my inner soul. My soul has been pierced and assaulted so many times. I am struggling with my desire and need to be loved and my fear of being wounded again.
As I read this and offer a prayer, I ask You to assure me of the genuineness of Your love. Sow seeds of trust in my soul so that I will trust Your loving-kindness.
May Your love banish my fears and replace them with a relationship that will fill the hole in my heart.Amen.